Enjoy life while you still can

I have not the slightest idea how to start off this blog to be honest, the idea of writing this topic just suddenly struck me while I was listening to Fun's "Carry on". Well let me answer you a question: I got the idea of this topic from that song and the time now that I am writing this, is after my 7th friendzone which I thought was never going to happen because the recent relationship was going so perfect. Well as many of you guys know what kind of person I am: I am really sensitive and when something like friendzone happens, I get really depressed and can't move on; but I think this time I understand everything and moved on. I told myself it's time to stop depressing and such, (also in this time now I am sad and jealous of my other friends) and plus reading some of the old messages my New Zealand friend sent me before to comfort me, I found out there's actually nothing to be jealous or sad about, and so I've decided to step foot on the island of "reborn". Yup, you got that right, I am moving on and reborn to the motto of "Enjoy life while you still can". Of course you can put that statement in many ways, there's "Cherish life as much as you can" or "Live like you are going to die tomorrow"... Well what the bloody hell ever, I am still sticking to my own motto no matter what.

Alright, enough talk, let's go to the main point. (oh, and if you find my writing style strange, well that's how I write, at least you can understand it, right?)

Our life is full of regrets, heart breaks, joy, victories, hopes and dreams and many more, well I guess that's why they call it "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you will get" (to be honest, it's more like "life is like a lucky draw). At many points in our life, we want to give up and end all this pain, because we think this life is just pointless, and thinking our future is hopeless; well let me tell you something then, everytime you feel that, tell yourself or have it written on a big A2 paper and stick it on your wall, "Don't give up, remember why you started". Well let me tell you a little story of my life, ok, maybe a big one. I've gone through a lot of pain and suffering, from heart break to friends dying. Well and every single time I just feel like life is pointless, it's just bullshit, I mean, why isn't it treating me good? Why is it full of hatred and sorrow and pain? Yea, that was me before, I'd cry the hell out of myself while yelling at the mirror of what a fool and how worthless I am, and everytime I get friendzoned I just keep on yelling at the mirror saying "You know why that happened? Because you suck, you are an asshole and nobody will ever like you", well maybe that is true, maybe not, ha. And after a night or whole day of crying and yelling and punching walls and maybe firing my airsoft gun in the air, I still can't move on, I just sulk and cry sometimes, and having a depressed mood all the time.The funny thing is, everytime after I cry and yell, I recover like everyone does, well I never truly reflect on what I did wrong, instead I feel stupid for crying and wasting all that time, because I eventually move on and continue life. Because you see, when I was depressed, I just waste time, I did nothing but cry, I could have use that time to write tons more blogs, could have use that time to finish my book about ww2 Stalingrad; but no, I was stupid and stubborn, my friends told me from time to time to move on, but I didn't, I was hoping that maybe she will change her mind and love me back... Maybe I was being stupid, but sometimes girls might change their minds and love will eventually find a way.
Now let us take a look, all my life from primary grade 6 I guess, I've been depressed, even a hungry African child is happier and positive than me (no offense here). I've gone through 7 friendzones and a few more relationship failures; one of my great friend that was always here was dead but now back but avoiding everything (long story and I am not allowed to tell) and many more things that I do not wish to list out anymore. Overall I've been wasting all my time depressing and crying and whining like a little baby. NO, "suck it up" is what I should have told myself and not waste time. So for the past couple of days, right after she friendzoned me, well not really because we both did have a crush on each other... But any how, I was thinking about a lot, on the bus, walking, during lessons, all those times, and I finally came to something.
My whole bloody childhood, I've been like an old man worrying the sky will fall down on him at the next second, crying like I lost my whole family, depressed like I lost my best friend. Was it really worth it? Will that be a good childhood for me when one day I think back about it? NO, it's going to make up the worse memories of all time and maybe make myself depress again. So I am ready and am already going to step up to this and be a man, not a baby that cries because he's scared of a cute puppy, but a man that is ready to face any challenges and make the most of his life. I want to make my childhood a fun and happy one, so I am going to enjoy my whole childhood and life onwards, I will not waste one second crying or depressing, well maybe sometimes but not for 2 months. So "Enjoy life while you still can" means a lot, think about it, when you are grown up, working all day all night, going home, shower, dinner and sleep and then repeating the same pattern over and over again, do you still have time for fun? So why not enjoy everything now? Because if you sit here and waste your own time doing nothing, when you are grown up you are just going to regret your whole life, and ask yourself "What have I done my whole childhood?", you can't answer that, and you can't go back to that time and have fun. So don't waste time now, this is your time to shine, life can be sad and depressing, but use those failures as lessons and boost yourself up, the more you fail the more you learn the better you get at life. Have fun in this life, in YOUR life, enjoy yourself, don't care about what other thinks, they just want to make your life worse, make the most of your life every single day. No matter what, breakfast, taking a bus, or even going to the toilet, do it like you will never be able to do it again, have fun, dance in the bathroom, have fun with your cereal, enjoy every moment of your life, so when you are grown up, you won't regret anything, but instead say "wow, what a life, I wish I am still a kid".
Yes, so there we have it people, my life story for you, teaching you to enjoy every moment of your life, don't worry, your whole life is full of surprises, many pain, but remember, there will always be light in the darkest hall way, you will eventually find your happiness and victory in life. :)