Well, hello, I have no idea where to start off...
First off, my deepest apologies for not posting for such a long time (if there's anyone who really reads my stuffs) I've been busy in school, preparing for exams and next year's diploma, oh and student council, yay! The other thing is, through out the gap between, I've been attacked by jealousy, loneliness, and sadness... Well that's really bad, as you all might think; to be honest, not really, it was a good thing: it taught me something that I'm about to explain below, and overall it shaped me a bit I guess, but I will still be jealous and be sad and feel lonely in the future but I guess at least I know how to stop it now than before.
This world is full of corruption and disappointment, and it's designed to screw you over; but that's why you must stand up and defeat it, find allies to walk with and together defeat the barricades and flames of hell in life, then behind the thick wall of mist you will find the long desired victory you've always wanted and worked so hard for it.
Your life is like nobody else's and only you have full access to it with you wanting to do whatever you want to do with it; but that control is limited and if you don't enjoy it then it'd be too late and regretting would be too late. Ye you might say I've wrote about this similar topic before, but that's not what I want to focus on this one, nope. This one talks of friends or even the objects we have around us. Friends are an important component in our lives and without them our life will be missing a huge portion of joy and happiness, but sometimes you may not realise the friends around you have been your greatest friends you can ever have, and then you might even ignore them and thinking they are ruining your life. Well this is what happened, all my life, I've wanted to meet new people and such, and around these few years, I've always been chasing people and wanting them to be friends with me but resulting them in they ignoring me since I've been too annoying and then I feel sad and think that I am alone and all. This went on for a few years but recently I suddenly have this thinking session in my mind while riding the bus to school: I thought about the people around me, the people that were there for me when I was sad and down, the people that really wants me to be their friends, and yet I've ignored them and went on chasing people to be my friends that might not even deserve me as a friend (not to brag myself here). I've been a foolish guy, chasing something that is not suited for me while the things that I truly want are just there, lying there behind me and waiting for me, and yet I've ignored them and been like a fool... We always complain how we don't have a best friend, or a funny friend, or a girl / boy that truly love us, well maybe they are already there but you've been a blind fool and ignored them. So next time you feel sad or jealous because of friendship or such, stop being jealous or sad, take a minute, think about it, think of the circle of friends around you, and you will realise the friends you desire are already there, but sad as you've ignored them, so it's time for you to stop chasing, turn around, greet your true friends, give them a hug, tell them "thank you for being my true friend" and treasure them.
Oh there's one more thing about friends I want to share with you. True friends are hard to come by, and I've seen people ditching their friends once they reached the top and became famous or popular. Yes, you might get a huge bunch of friends that have fun with you and make you famous, but at the end, true friends are the ones that comfort you when you are down; so never forget them and abandon them, remember you got to the top because of them.
That's what I've to share for this post, and before I end this, I want to thank a few people for coming into my life and filling in the colors on my rainbow.
First I want to thank Alkynes for being like my best brother ever, pulling me back up from hell and slapping me out of it when I am depressed and turning into a blind idiot, without him I don't know where I'd be today.
Then there's Blue, or Packie. Thank you for being like a father to me, you've taught me what to do in stressed out situations and really boost me up in certain screwed up moments in my life, motivating and encouraging me to keep trying and not give up.
Serah, is a really really good friend. She really turned me from the bad and foul me to the true me today. Without her I'd have never met the people I mentioned above. She listened to me when I got to the point that I have become an annoying little cunt and making no sense at all anymore, she's always there to comfort me and always type a big meaningful chunk of motivating words to slap me out of shit and get me back on my feet. I still have her words till today.
And also never forget Roachy, was a great friend to me, he's always funny and some how suffer a few same topics with me, so that's how we can easily understand each other and help each other off our arses, but thank you so much Roachy, for being my friend.
Brian Kyle McRiley, as how he wants to be called. He's a great school friend, always there beside me and just won't stop making me laugh, well he's one of those people that lighten up my life and bring joy to it, so thanks mate.
Abbey, you are a true friend, I have no regret for knowing you. She understands me and share the few same toture of life. We help each other get out of barricades and hell holes when there's no one that understand us or help us.
Jon, although we only know each other for a few months, but hey, thank you for being there too. He understands the relationship side of suffering in me since he felt that before, and he'd help me up and give me advises, and cheer me up.
There are many more people alike that I am so grateful that I've met you but hell, I can't write a list and spam this blog post. I thank you too for being there for me, and when you need help, whether you are a friend or a foe or even a stranger, I am always here to help you.
