My school life up till now, I've always been the smallest through my grade; not smallest in size, but in age... I was born in November, which pretty much is the last part of a year, and my dad have always said I should be put into school one year younger, but because of my bloody tall as hell height, mum decided to put me into school in the same grade as the kids born in 98. To you it might not affect a lot, you might even take me as stupid for blaming that factor about my life, well have it your way because I am going to explain my factor and proof you wrong.
Being born in November, makes you almost born in the next year's January, so if I was put into 1999's class I'd be the smartest of all of kingdom come. But sadly that's not how my story's plot started; you see, being small makes me not being able to compete with others in the same year, it's like giving grade 4 stuffs to a grade 3. Yeah, I know you are still thinking I am dumb and such, but shut up and listen up. Being small allows me not to keep up with the others, and when all the others are doing perfect and I am not, the teacher thinks it's my own problem and so skips me and kept on teaching, yelled at me for being not good enough, well god damn it! And after all those years in primary school, I was merely able to go on high school, and I went to interviews after interviews but no school was willing to get me in, why? Because I have bad grades, why? Because I wasn't able to catch up, why? Because I was small and couldn't get things in my brain and get them running, oh and Hong Kong education system is also a factor that I blame, it's not learning, it's knowledge pouring into your brain, you don't need to understand or think, just memorise all the crap from text books and be able to write it back out and get a good grade, and ta da, you are a professional Asian!! Well sadly that was my story either; so schools after schools, I finally found one, it was a school taught in IB, or international baccalaureate, it was new so it accepts all kinds of kids, so I got in, started out bad because I was young to understand anything and was stupid. Being the smallest also led me into following bad friends, being used and being teased at. Then in high school, I was able to get myself sorted out, was still an idiot wondering around my life and education but I managed, but then being the social me, I went and try to meet more new friends, but I didn't know how to, and so my way was keep on finding them and chatting through this new platform I found out in grade 7 called Skype, well to them, I was annoying and bugged the shit out of them, and then to them my way of communicating is "childish", and you know how kids like to gossip, well they did and spread my "childish" and annoying doings through the grade, that's when people started to think I am weird and trying to avoid me, most of my friends are either people that doesn't give a crap about the popular ones, people that accept any kind of people or new comers that have no idea about the rumours and gossips. Well soon as I reached higher grade, I started liking girls, well by then I was able to manage a lot, because well maybe I was a late bloomer? Because I suddenly started growing mature and respecting myself, I even found the people in my grade selfish, rude and well, immature. Anyhow, I had quite a few affairs with girls in the same and lower grades, and people from lower grades also started thinking I am weird and a pedophile, but bloody hell, it's not pedophile unless it's a 10 years difference, and hey, you can't blame me, I don't like most girls in my grade because they are rude and they don't like me. Well with all that and a few more problems and rumours, nearly the whole school started hating on me, and so now, up till this day, when I walk past people in my school, I just have this feeling that I am like someone who have returned from the dead and people are shocked but yet afraid to interact with me. But yeah, after high school, I am going to come out of that slum like I've been banished by a herd of zombies because I am human myself, haha.
Well there you go, a story of my teenage hood, it's yet to develop, who knows, I might end up getting the nobel price or being beat up by the whole school, but whatever happens I will stay strong and the school can't change me, can't move me, I am myself and whatever shit they pour on me, I will stand tall and strong, until the day I die. This post might seem like me ranting but nah, I always want to give this piece to the people who share the same fate as me, might not be hated, might be alone, bullied or such, but just so you know, whatever happens, we will come out the strongest because we've gone through the most storms, thunders and earthquakes.
